Clarification

A friend emailed me in love about my previous post and the mention of PTSD. She wanted to know if that was legit and if so, what it came from. So here's the answer. It came from my grandmother's death (though that is quite a ways off now and not nearly as sharp) and my summer internship on the Rez in the summer of 2011. Most of it is secondary PTSD which comes from having a heightened sense of compassion...ie I hear someone's story and it's as if I lived it. You hear a lot of horrible stories as an intern and, in my psyche, they all became my own stories. Therefore, triggers could be random objects or words that reminded me of those events or stories and I had to relive them all over again, fear and all. So things like shoes, tuna, and chocolate mouse still give me flash backs sometimes. But not as often as they used to. And they're pretty much the main ones, though I never know when it'll come up. My flash backs now don't stop me from functioning normally though like they used to so there is SO much healing that has happened in me, by God's grace.

So that's that.