Settle

[ supporting our three caledonians on the JV soccer team ]

Things are beginning to settle into an expected level of chaos. At least some semblance of rhythm has appeared from week to week, even if it's not from day to day.

I have to constantly remember that it is the LORD who gives me peace and not my own tight managing of my schedule. What freedom comes with THAT realization!

This semester is going to be rough for sure, but in completely different ways than it has been before. It's bursting with a whole new set of lessons to soak up. The difficulty doesn't come from classes (yet) because they all fascinate me, even those I never expected to enjoy. It doesn't come from people (yet) because I am living with some of my dearest friends. It doesn't come from PTSD because the Lord is continually healing me there as I pray this blog has attested to.

Rather, it comes from the fact that I will be leaving early. Missing time here. Christmas won't be a break, it will be a substantial see-ya-later. Everyone here will go on together as I rocket across the ocean towards who-knows-what wonder in England. And yet, even as I have to say see-ya then, I still have to invest, love, and cherish here. I have to make it so it is difficult to say see-ya. I can't just stay disconnected in order to protect myself. Lord, give me strength.